It’s been one year to the day since I last saw my dad. Today’s his birthday. On his birthday last year, I stopped by on my way to work and spent a few minutes with him, laughing and talking, and then we hugged and I went on about by day, never knowing that weeks later he’d be on a ventilator in the hospital dying of … Continue reading One year later
Pictured left to right: Jim Inhofe, James Lankford, Kevin Stitt I hear all this high-minded feelgood talk coming out of some of our politician’s mouths about all the things they’re supposedly doing for us. How they’re looking out for small business owners and “essential workers” promising to “keep everyone safe.” Cut the shit, alright? You talk the talk and institute a lot of symbolic gestures … Continue reading State of Oklahoma to its citizens: “We don’t care about you.”
What a clusterfuck this whole pandemic response has turned into. From the getgo, we’ve been fed a lot of contradictory info and advice, and that’s because the people in charge don’t know what the fuck they’re talking about, either. No one knows anything, really. We weren’t prepared for this. We crashed the country and took away people’s ability to earn a living without giving them … Continue reading PanDUMBic
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I’ve been watching (because it’s in my face and I can’t avoid it) this heated exchange between people who are gung-ho about opening everything back up vs those who want to keep everything locked down for awhile longer. You call these people idiots for wanting to go back to work, but from what position are you judging them? Are your basic needs assured? Are you … Continue reading You both have a point.
I sometimes have a hard time sitting back and being entertained by a book, movie or TV show. All I can think about the entire time is writing and creating. Even when I’m halfway paying attention, I’m still pausing to do random nonsense like this: However, I recognize the necessity of refueling one’s creative tank, and in that spirit I’ve been re-reading The Chronicles of … Continue reading Why do we gravitate towards things that are bad for us?
I recently posted my thoughts on my Dad’s death from COVID-19. I had to sit down and write something about it, because writing is my main cathartic outlet–a means by which I process my feelings and sort them out. My objectives were twofold: Put a human face on this crisis to jolt people out of their collective complacency, and to tell everyone how proud I … Continue reading Thank you all.
I woke up Friday morning with the knowledge that my dad was going to die that day. He’d been unconscious and on a ventilator for two weeks, and was showing no signs of improvement. His heart was weakening, and he was developing blood clots. Nothing good was going to come out of any of this, and it was decided that later that afternoon we’d be … Continue reading COVID-19 took my dad
The state of the world right now reminds me a lot of the state of the world at the beginning of my book Effugium: The Time Remaining, and I feel like Caldo making one of his blog entries every time I open this app. We’re scared. We’re uncertain. We don’t trust anything we hear. We can’t trust anything we hear. Death is in the air. … Continue reading An absolute nightmare
First off, let me state that this post is not a plea for sympathy–we’re all in this together, and I’m very thankful to have remained employed, unlike so many others. This is just me documenting my thoughts and feelings during a time of great historical significance. I feel that a cultural paradigm shift on par with 9/11 is upon us. I don’t know what that’s … Continue reading Coming to terms with all of this…